Today part of my world came tumbling down. I knew I was behind on the car payments but I didn't think I was that far behind. This morning as I walked my husband to the door for him to go to work and school, we watched dumbfoundedly as our car was repossessed. The shock lasted about an hour as Jason called his boss and told him incredulously that he wouldn't be in that day.
The shock turned to tears. And what seemed to be the end of existence. I called Toyota Financial and they told me all the information I would need to get my car back would be mailed to me in a letter. Now I know I don't have the money to get it back so Jason and I are talking about getting an old clunker and him fixing it up in shop class. That only works if they auction off the car for more than we owe on it. Otherwise we have to keep making payments on it. Well that sucks.
So I posted in my distress that today was the worst day I've had in a very long time on Facebook and I got some question marks as comments. I broke the news and one of my old friends told me to call her in a few hours. I did. She just lost one of her best friends the week before and it made me realize, it's just a stupid car. It's just stupid money. It's not so bad. No one died because of it. I thought about death today. Was death better than having no car. My husband told me I was being stupid and he was right. Now I'm thinking about death in a whole new way. I have life. I should thank God for every precious moment. Am I heading towards living on that park bench. Maybe. But at least I have my husband. And I have my family.
One day I'll look back at this and laugh at how I got so upset over a car. In the meantime though, send positive thoughts my way. I could really use them.
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