Hunger Sucks

We're watching Lifetime Movies (don't ask me why) and right now we're watching Starving in Suburbia.  It's this really disturbing movie about Anorexia.  It's a serious topic and one I've been accused of even at my large weight.  I dropped 20 pounds in a month and my doctor was concerned.  The truth was I was starving but from lack of food.  Hunger is another big problem in our country.  If I were a Miss USA contestant 1) I probably would have some kind of eating disorder and 2) I would want to end World Hunger.  There is nothing worse than starving yourself so someone you love can eat.  I've done it, and some people I know have done it.  Usually for their children.

We were finally eligible for Food Stamps and I stocked up our shelves and freezer.  Then my husband worked two shifts at a garage before he got sick.  The IRS reported to the Department of Transitional Assistance that he was working.  They didn't care that it was only two shifts and that he had a MegaBacteria and didn't work for 1.5 months.  I dropped off his paystubs so they wouldn't shut off our food stamps and they said they were recent enough.  I just can't win.  So I have to wait for him to get another pay stub and drop that off.  Hopefully we will still be eligible for Food Stamps

I hate not having enough money.  Not enough money means not enough food.  I've had eating disorders in the past.  And I've starved for lack of food.  Neither is pleasant and this movie is especially disturbing.  The lengths people go to for perceived beauty and perceived control is frightening.  The effects on the internal organs, especially the heart can be irreversible (I believe).  I've gone days where all I've eaten is a spoonful of peanut butter.  Was it because I had no food or am I secretly desperate to lose weight.  One of my best friends is pressuring me to lose weight.  I guess they're not really a best friend.  Although my doctor wants me to lose weight, but in a healthy way.  She wants me to see a nutritionist.  I'll go when I can afford the healthy things.  The cheap food is crap.

Anyway, thanks for listening to my rambling.  If you're starving because you have an eating disorder, get help, please.  And if you're starving and the government can't or won't help you, check out food pantries.

Hunger sucks.