My blog is called "Living Life To It's Fullest". But am I really doing that? Not really. I lack purpose, except to be my husband's wife. And to be the mother of my 6 guinea pigs and 4 snakes. Other than that I feel like I'm floundering. I haven't worked a regular job in really six years now. I've dropped all my hobbies and I just seem to be like a flag waving in the wind. Not really going anywhere, just swaying the way the wind blows me.
I tried school, that didn't work out for financial reasons. I tried volunteering with animal shelters but there are apparently lengthy volunteer waiting lists. I'm allergic to cats so I'd rather work with small animals or dogs.
The bottom line is maybe I have to accept that my body has limitations. I'm not lazy as it was pointed out to me. I have real physical and other issues. I am limited in what I can do. I need a part time desk job. So I've started applying to those. I am doing everything I can to get out of this rut. I can't work retail and be on my feet all day. It's just not an option. I have to accept it.
So I may not be living life to it's fullest but I'm going to try to get there. I have a family in my own way with a truly loving husband. I can't wait until he's done with school so I can see him more. He's already done with his first 3 month term in another week. Then he gets a break. Then he has 15 months to go.
Guess what?! Because his break is coming up we can go to Canadian Thanksgiving at my mother's house. My mother was worried we weren't going to be able to make it but we will. I told Jason to ask for it off from his part time job, so that should be all set. Mmmm... I can't wait for homemade pecan and pumpkin pies. And the cranberry sauce. Oh hell, I love it all! See I can get excited about things. I can't be that far gone, can I? LOL.
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